Halloween Dinner

Friday, November 4
Dear Grandma,
Tonight we had our annual Halloween Dinner:  dinner in a pumpkin.  With your detailed notes and pictures :) mom was able to pull it off somewhat.  Of course, not as good as you, but she is learning.  Mom did say that it is hard work being you!  We missed you at our "Boo-quet" table.  Things will never be the same, we are just trying to adapt to a new "normal".  Hopefully you got our balloons--next time we will sneak you some candy!
We Love You!
Forever and Always,
Jaxon, Justus, Jace, Jett

Blanket Project Details

Dear Grandma,
Many have expressed interest in participating in Grandpa's "chemo blanket project". It is an awesome idea and a great way to honor your sweet generous spirit. This is what is needed for the project:

Soft fleece blankets-good to snuggle in during chemo treatments. We've seen some at Walmart, Kohls, Sam's, Shopko, etc. ranging from $10 to $20. Average size is 60 x 80 (give or take).

Those that want to participate can drop off their blankets to grandpa or our mom (Natalie) before Thankgiving. The plan is to take all the blankets (goal = 200) to the Cancer Treatment Center the day after Thanksgiving.

We miss you more everyday! Time is an interesting thing, today it has been a week since you've been gone. Hopefully all the weeks to come don't last as long as this one.

We love you!
Forever and Always,
Jax, Justus, Jace, Jett

Chemo Day

Wednesday, November 2
Dear Grandma,
Today is Wednesday.  We have affectionately known Wednesdays for the past few months as "chemo day".  The day you would go and have your treatments.  Even without you here, Grandpa Randy still went to the Cache Valley Cancer Center to visit with the "regulars" there.  He talked to your favorite nurses and some of the patients that you've "connected" with over the past few months.  These patients are our new heroes.  They are fighting a battle that no one would enlist in and yet they are fighting it bravely, courageously, day in and day out just like you did.  Sometimes it is hard to understand why your battle has ended, we sure do miss you.  We are trying to take things a day at a time.

Grandpa Randy has a great idea.  While he was talking to the staff at the Cancer Center he was told that there are 200 ACTIVE patients treated at their facility.  What an insane number.  It is hard to see everyone going on with their day to day life when we know what battles are being fought courageously, silently.  So here is the plan.  As family and friends we are going to gather 200 blankets to donate to the Cancer Center so that all of the patients will have something warm and comforting to get them through their treatments just like you did.  We are going to deliver them the day after Thanksgiving.  Mom is going to write a little note to go on each one.  Maybe in some way this will bring these brave warriors hope and comfort.

We miss you so bad it hurts.  Tomorrow it will be a week since your passing and yet it seems like an eternity since you were here.  Hopefully the weeks won't always drag on like this.  We know that life will never get easier, we are just hoping it becomes bearable.

We love you!
"Forever and Always"
Jaxon, Justus, Jace, Jett

Dear Grandma

Our Grandma Kandace was taken from us much too soon.  She was the best grandma this world has ever seen.  We will miss her everyday for the rest of our lives.  We know that she doesn't want to miss a thing, so we will keep her updated.  We know that she is always with us and will be cheering us on every step of the way.  This sums it up:

To the Grandkids,
I'm sorry I can't be there, I was needed up above.
Just know that Grandma's watching, and sending ALL her love.

I'll share with you your laughter, I'll wipe away your tears.
I'll keep your precious secrets, and hug away your fears.

Please know that I'm your biggest fan, and will be your whole life through.
Just call me when you need me, and I'll be right there for you.

Love,
Grandma Kandace